May 31, 2014
We are coming up to about a year since we found out that we were losing chuck. What a year last year was. I dont want to dwell too much on it. Ill simply say that he was the most wonderful dog I could have had. he always will be. I was so stuck in his diagnosis and eventual passing last year, I honestly didnt think that there would be a day when I could be “me” again. Where we could be “us” . But, In truth, last year taught me about myself. the good, the bad and the ugly. It did make me stronger, however. I miss the big guy, but almost a year later, I honestly feel like me again. so many wonderful things have come our way since we lost him. I do feel like some of those things were sent our way by the help of our angels. I wake up to moments like these and Im instantly reminded of how thankful I am for every second I get with the ones I love…
Miss Betsy, you are truly one of a kind and thank you my big guy for sending her to us
April 27, 2014
Finally the weather allows us to get Betsy out on some of our adventures! Her and I both are getting a little too fluffy from our lack of activity this winter. This was one of chucks favorite spots. It’s a bit of a hike to get there, so once he got sick we couldn’t get there anymore. It felt…right to be here again. Betsy loves just smelling everything. As soon as we get to this spot chuck would sit, relax, then try to sneak to a creek in the back ..which is exactly what Betsy wanted to do..lol so happy for fresh air again!
Lori and the fam
March 31, 2014
We had our first 60 degree day yesterday! I ran the shamrock shuffle, sporting my new team tripawds shirt! I was one of 45000 ppl who ran the 5 miles. It was such a great day.
My husband picked me up from the train station, and for the first time since Chuck was healthy, we took a nice long hike as a family. This time with Betsy, but it was just as nice. And serene. And happy. And. . Warm. Ish. Lol
here’s to warmer weather and more happy memories in the making!
And then there’s the best part of our days:
March 21, 2014
The hubs is gone fishin, the kid is having a sleepover with grandma, so it’s girllll timeeeee! Well. Besides dexter anywho, took miss Betsy out for a muddy hike to one of chucks favorite spots, she accompanied me on all my random errands..she’s doing so great! She’s so incredibly special. She’s finally calming down a bit, and really has the hang of what it means to walk on a leash
It’s so funny because I was always a scardey cat when my husband went out of town, and people didn’t get it. I mean. I had 175 lb dog in the house. That would hold the flashlight for anyone who would enter my house and lead them right to me. Lol chuck was the epitome of a gentle giant. Bets, is sweet, and cuddly, and AMAZING with my cats and all kids, but she has a bark as big as chucks body. Lol it’s not all bad, but let’s just say she’s made a few grown men walking passed our house jump in fear lol. She’s not perfect, but we are getting there, she’s getting so much more comfortable, is learning her manners, but I know she’d protect me if push came to shove
March 9, 2014
The little boy seemed to accept Bilker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker’s Death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.
Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ”I know why.”
Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I’d never heard a more comforting explanation. It has changed the way I try and live. He said, ”People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life — like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The Six-year-old continued, ”Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”
Here’s another thought, if a dog was the teacher you would learn things like:
When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joy ride.
Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure Ecstasy.
Stretch before rising.
Run, romp, and play daily.
Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.
When you’re happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
Never pretend to be something you’re not.
If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by, and nuzzle them gently.
ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY
-A Dogs Purpose, as Told By a 6 Year Old
February 17, 2014
February 8, 2014
Last year was such a happy one. . On this day. I kept saying how it was like celebrating his 50th. Since he was 5. And saints generally till about 10. Who knew this jerk of a disease was brewing and that it would take not only him but two of his siblings over the next year.
Today I’m a little sad. Just sad for all the time we didn’t get. But happy he’s in a better place. Happy to be moving forward.
Miss ya big guy. So much. Your the best guardian Angel we could have. Hope you and your brother and sister are partying like rock stars up there…
January 26, 2014
The story of two brothers:
When we picked chuck up from his breeders, 3 hours away from our home, they tried to convince us that the couple from our neighborhood already picked up the dog. Well. It turned out the only two males in that litter were destined to live 5 mins from each other. We left that day not knowing who had Chucks bro, just that he would be close to us.
Fast forward to their first birthday. My husband went to petsmart to buy chuck a birthday gift. And low and behold. . There was this huge saint bernard standing in line at the register. And it was Paulie. Chucks brother. The pic above is them meeting for the first time.
Life got busy for both of our families. We both had babies around the same time, etc. We lost touch for a few years, but last year within weeks of me finding out that my old vet suddenly retired, desperately searching for a new vet, I get a message from Paulie dad just checking in to see how we were. Just in time for me to need his vet info. It was within the next week that chuck started limping and within the next two that we used Paulies vet who ultimately found Chucks cancer.
Chucks battle was a strong one. But a tough one. So many decisions that were so hard to make. And Paulies family was behind us from day one. Regularly checking in and making sure we were all OK.
The day we said goodbye to chuck I got a message from Paulies dad that they were in the waiting room because they had an appointment that night too.
Paulie was in the next room as we said goodbye to our angel. And on Tues he’ll get to run with Chuck once again.
Like chuck he’s not even close to being a good candidate for amputation for many reasons. Like chuck the cancer is in his front leg. Like chuck. .He’s already beginning to fracture. And his parents love him enough to take that pain away before he’s completely fractured.
My heart is so shattered that this is happening so damned soon. Their sister died of the same thing 2 weeks before chuck was diagnosed. It’s just not fair. Everything about these siblings is so special. It’s so ironic how we all met each other. How and when we all came into each others lives. And how we all said goodbye. I really hope something positive comes out of all of this. 3 families lost their dogs before the age of 6. 3 families have had their hearts shattered from osteosarcoma. It’s just not fair.
I really don’t have any wise words to say. Just please keep Paulie and his family in your hearts and prayers over the next few days. May his last be comfortable. May his family be strong. May their heart be mended. May they all be forever comforted by their own beautiful big angel-saint. On Tues, may chuck greet him at the bridge. So they can once again run free together. ..